The Lover of My Soul

I am alone tonight. Julie is at Texas Music Educators Association in San Antonio. I can't wait to with her when I travel to meet her tomorrow, but my thoughts trailed tonight...

I am in love with Jesus. It is a love that cannot be anything other than real. A love that changes everything about me. A love that at sometimes hurts so much. A love that thirsts for time speant and nearness felt. And a love that feels the warmth and beauty of love returned.

I wonder about this Lover of My Soul. I wonder why He does certain things. Why He omits specific actions or answers. I wonder why He loves me. I sometimes wonder how He is showing it. And then day breaks. The sun shines down on a flower's pedal or a dancing leave in the wind and I see His hand. Not to say I know the answers to all my questions. But, I feel again His nearness. I get lost again in His company. I see His gifts poured out in my life and I fall in love again. Deeper and deeper in love with my Jesus, the Lover of My Soul.

Well I guess it would be of note to some that I have had surgery.

Two weeks before last Thanksgiving I stood up swifly from crouching down and tore my right medial meniscus. The meniscus is a moon shaped peice of cartilaginous tissues that provide structural integrity to the knee when it undergoes tension and torsion.

By swiftly standing up from a crouched position my patella in conjunction with my tibia tore this peice of cartilage which has since then brought about quite a few instances of pain.

The surgeon performed Arthroscopy, which is a minimally invasive surgical procedure in which an examination and sometimes treatment of damage of the interior of a joint is performed using an arthroscope, a type of endoscope that is inserted into the joint through a small incision. Arthroscopic procedures can be performed either to evaluate or to treat many orthopaedic conditions including torn floating cartilage, torn surface cartilage, ACL reconstruction, and trimming damaged cartilage the latter being my particular case.

So as we have it now, my beautiful bride is nursing me back to health, while I hobble around the house wondering how in the world I am supposed to go back to work on Monday.